J'attends / Old and New

"I'm waiting". 

What for?

To breath freely. 

To stare into the air and say - yes, it is over. Is it over? Something has gone, and something will begin.

I'm not waiting for the new phase to begin before the old will end. 

I'm waiting for the old to come to an end. 

As one gives birth to a new life, one can give birth to an end, in favor of a new life to come.

As the Bible mentions it, "the old will be removed in the face of the new". 

So where is the end? And what am I waiting for?
To dye my hair with a colour of freedom and revolution? To wear my pair of jeans and throw my legs freely into the air? To ride into the open space of a field or  some wide and empty road, to circle around with my bicycle and feel as if I had wings?

To eat my ice cream within a crowded city and feel alone?

To buy the first fruits for my new kitchen and sense pride after cooking an egg?

What am I waiting for?

As to my humble opinion, I'd say I'm waiting for a myself to emerge, an honest one, a self-conscious one, a happy and inspired one, a powerful one, a reasonable one.

But opinions are only fruits of limited minds.

The heart will tell. It will know when I need to stop waiting and start working to achieve my goals. 

There is a time to wait and a time to work, a time to grow and a time to be born and start living.

J'attends. 

Devant Moi Longings for Future

Sometimes......
I get these longings...
These visions of - how could my life look like!?..... And then I need so much hope and love around me to go on hoping and living...As it says:

C'est devant moi que je veux vivre, j'ai devant moi beaucoup de vies et des rires...

As I listen to all that beautiful music, I experience so many strong emotions and it rolls through my head: What will I do with all the energy it produces? How can I elevate it in my life, how can I develop into something big and good and useful? How can I express the raging, howling, singing, laughing, burning soul inside of me? Should I meet someone who can take it and give it a name and a body? Should I just go on singing on my own and be nice to my friends and that's it? Or what should I do?
I want to do a big step to something. I just go no idea, what exactly is it that I want. It's one thing I know - I need much hope and belief in myself and in what I have and God help me to find the source and the direction to put the energy in it.
It's night, such feelings often come at night and the beauty and pain make me cry.
To say it again with the words of Mylène which were created for such moments:

 

La vie n'est pas toujours ce chemin droit

Il faut me dire quand vient le noir

J'ai devant moi beaucoup de vie et d'espoir...

ZR

Unaccomplished longings - Music

....Evening came, night has arrived, and I play my music again and again...No way to say there could be anything more beautiful for me right now than the ringing of Mylène's singing in my ears.

You know this phenomenon? This state of mind which can't be excused nor ignored, when you feel the longing for one special song, one special singer, and only this one?....That is what has caught me now, and believe it or not - I enjoy it with all my heart.
There's nothing better than diving into another beloved person's world. I can say sans ambiguité, without hesitation that I love the person I get to know in a deeper way. I fall in love with this special way of the other one. This love is deep, desired - but remains unsatisfied, somehow, always. No matter how much you listen to what she sings, watch her face, her smile, say her name, dream her act in front of and next to you - you will never have her accomplished in your mind. It remains an unaccomplished dream....

Sometimes I think, there should be more of them.



There is a lot behind this face. Mylène.

Zèmer Rèmez - An Idea

 

"Quand.... mes mots s'ârrètent sur mes lèvres

Dis moi - qu'est-ce que je peux faire?

La résponse pourra être - sourire 

Mais j'ai fait mon choix - c'est écrire.  

Since a longer amount of time I feel an immense urge to find a way to express myself somehow in a sphere where everyone reads everything and my voice could be heard in some way without me running around through the streets and knocking on doors to find ears to listen to me. Each soul is an ocean of richness and beauty. If only we could be able to discover on our own what's hidden inside of us - we could be able to recognize this beauty in others. 

Be Me. Zèmer

My name is Zèmer and Rèmez means an indication, in Hebrew, one language which belongs to me. My mind and soul are rich - and I would like to share my luck with others. With whoever has his heart open to my words and thoughts. 

This ocean which is called soul - une ame in French, a language that I feel strong emotions for - we cannot see its bottom. We aren't supposed to see it. We have to come to understand that the soul is endless, timeless and immortal. As we are humans with our own special limits of life and death, we can only grasp a tiny little spark of that immense creature - the soul. The soul is a tremendous gift. Yet, it's like an instrument in our hands which needs to be learned how to use and not be broken. 

If you ask me - it's our task  in our life to explore our own souls and use the multiple abilities it includes. We need to learn to express what our soul gets to learn and develops within us. 

 

My choice to express myself is for now in writing, lyrics, music, shared experiences and of course, interaction with you, with all who lives and breaths. I feel strongly that a soul can communicate in multiple languages, and thanks God, I'm gifted with the knowledge of many of them. Therefore you will find posts in various languages. A translation might sometimes follow. 

Over the time I'm sure I"ll go through numerous revolutions on my own and around me. This will only enrich my exchange with you and with myself.

 

Je suis libre aimer et fondre l'or, faire de la mort une immortelle

Rêver jusqu'á l'aurore, aimer encore, aimer le ciel....

I love my life.

Love it with me!  <3

My inspiration for this blog derives from the French-Canadian singer and actress Mylène Farmer, I thank her personality and art for the inspiration to start this blog.